Thursday, October 18, 2012

Square Yourself!

     So there we were. Katie, Mary, Jake, and Mollie. We looked picture perfect…and to be biased again, we were. The best ASP family I could have asked for, and I was lucky enough to get to spend every day with them, relishing on every little moment that this organization has to offer. By God’s grace alone, Philippians 4:6-7 flooded my heart with some awesome truth: “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding will guard your heart and your mind in Christ Jesus.” Everything just felt right. I was confident in my family and had no doubt that we were all going to grow because of each other. If I had the time, I could spend hours sharing about all the crazy, funny, precious, and inspiring moments we shared together…so choosing just a handful is a little harder than I thought.

     If I could confidently say anything, it is that I had a God-filled staff that kept me even more in love with this ministry than before. Every meal was a family meal…a family meal beginning with a prayer. That alone spoke volumes to me, growing up in a home where prayer before meals was absent. We were genuine. We were real. We had love that moved mountains, and when all else got in the way, we put it aside and had each other. Looking back, the 17 homes we got to work on, every family member we met and over 500 volunteers we got to see be transformed through ASP cannot be accredited to just one of us…it was all four of us. We worked together, and we did it well. I thanked God for every moment that could have brought tension or that I was afraid to handle, but instead it went smoothly and took care of itself.  That being said, we were a family and we had our little riffs but when I look back at the overall picture, they hold no significance except for the fact that it made us stronger.

     It’s funny how certain memories stay with you, especially ones that make you laugh (or cry) just as hard as if it was just happening. I can tell you a lot of these moments happened this summer, and I continue to find comfort and peace in reliving them , now that I’m hours away from my summer home. The fact that I can’t look at a Monster energy drink (or any drink in a can) and not have a sudden uAtrge to shotgun  it, or hear “Wagon Wheel” and want to cry because I don’t have anyone to jam out down the halls waking up volunteers with our 7am voices. There are lines from movies, lyrics from songs and just silly things said during staff meetings or during our times together that will instantly bring a smile to my face, and sometimes I catch myself laughing out loud and not realize it until I see others staring at me, wondering what my problem is.  There were the moments that I found myself stepping back and watching the sweetness of the moment, like deep conversations on the roof or in our vehicles, watching my staff grow as they interacted with volunteers and knowing that they don’t need me to re-explain things to them and that they have everything under control. Trust. That is one thing I had from the get-go with my staff, but I found that it continued to grow as we all grew closer.

     At the end of the day, I’m the proudest Mama Bear that ever was. It is bittersweet when I take time to relish on all of our memories, but I wouldn’t trade even one second of our time together. To my staff, I want to thank you for your love and constant patience. For putting up with me when I clearly had no idea what I was doing. For seeing when I was taking on too much or was stressed, and doing all you could to take care of me and make me smile. For the random hug attacks or baby doll pranks. For the encouraging notes and sweet treats that caught me when I needed a little reminder. For the staff meetings that went too late because we wanted to spend all the time we could together. For our experiments, explorations, and energy bursts. For the tears shared and the laughter that filled the halls of Mullens Middle School. For being everything I could have ever wanted and MORE in a staff. Y’all were the best, a serious answer to prayer, and I cannot imagine spending the summer with any other combination of people. I have grown in ways that I could’ve never imagined because of you three and I know that ASP 2012 wouldn’t mean as much to me if I didn’t spend it with y’all. Remember…square yourselves.
Our first picture as a family.
 
 
Meet the Mullens M.O.B
 
Oh how cute we were!

First attempt of many at shotgunning Blue Monsters before squaredancing.
 
Happy beginning of Week 7!
 

(above): My little babies Mollie and Jake
(below): Me and my Minion, Mary <3

Laughing the morning we said goodbye to our Week 7 crew (it was bittersweet).
 
The last picture as a family (with a few extras).